The streets are filled with deafening silence, but my head is such a sharp contrast though. No isolation no quarantine, no restrictions whatsoever going on there, which is to say that during this period, my thoughts have been all over the place. You see, I am counting various decades on earth now (yes, various) so I am beginning to get some life certifications. My experiences validate my decisions and remind me that at the end of the day, I have the license to choose.
In this lockdown, I’ve been thinking particularly on this: How exactly does absence make the heart grow fonder? Because you see, ‘fond’ also means ‘foolishly optimistic or naïve’. So, assuming that there was any fondness in the first instance, what kind was it? Was it the loving embrace that envelopes your entire being like only true friendship can? Or was it a delusional kiss that had lasted too long, leaving the bitter taste of betrayal?
When you are separated from someone or an environment, it forces you to review the relationship: Was it an openly hostile one or was it subliminally toxic? (Bookie’s Thesaurus) Was it a hero-worship arrangement or a wind-beneath-my-wings situation? Was there a balance between humanity and humaneness, between emotional intelligence and professionalism?
I have unlocked my spirit mind and completely eradicated the carnal one. Seeing is usually believing, but eyesight limits you to what is in your face (pun intended) and completely discounts what is facing you. Man is God’s greatest creation, a masterpiece to say the least. But like every artistic stroke of genius, if it is hung on the wrong wall, it will be undervalued. The wrong vocation, the wrong clique, the wrong setting, the wrong game, the wrong style, the wrong attitude, all of these will still not add up to a right. I have come to realize that what you see with the eyes of your mind is greater than the ordinary, but only if that mind is in the right place.
Let me explain further, the people you keep around you constitute your position so you must spiritually decipher who you exert energy on. Positive or negative, energy is exerted when being applied. Therefore, choose even your enemies very carefully as they could also sap you of valuable resources. No one needs that, least of all you.
My mental vision is now 20-20 and the possibilities are endless. I choose to ignore the skid marks of change because hindsight is too late, and I simply cannot wait.
